Liam Left Alone

This covers a lot of topics which might be close to home to people and slightly graphic... (if its offensive its James' fault he told me to put it up here)

He found there where many ways to destroy himself in that foreign house. Everyone was out so what would it matter and sure his girlfriend later would cry again if he left a mark but she was working so scarless methods are available. With in a 6 hour shift, he could have bought more alcohol than any normal person could handle and down it and lie and let the world spin round him for a while. Take every pill labelled or not in that tempted plastic box in the cabinet in the bathroom.

He lead in her bed paralyzes by the fears of what he could do if he moved from that spot. He thought of how well his and her body fit together as though they where perfect although he wanted it all to change. He tried to talk to her many times about becoming who he felt he was becoming Liam once and for all rather than just pretending from time to time while outside away from people they knew but he was met with the brutal response of “I AM ONLY ATTRACTED TO WOMEN STOP IT! I love you but I can't love you if your like that”.

Liam tossed over onto his side and curled up and tugged at his long brown hair grew far beyond his breasts.

He kept two razor blades in the back of his phone just in case, sometimes it was enough to just place the metal strips on his thighs and imagine what he could do but some times it wasn't enough. As his neck began to throb from being placed in an awkward position he dragged him self up reached for his phone. After glancing at the lack of messages he went to the mirror and lifted up his shirt and stumbled as his fingers fidgeted with the small pressure pad at the back of the phone. He noticed how silent it had been previous to the two blades jingling as they fell to the floor and instantly put on Boys Don't Cry by the cure setting it to repeat.

He looked into the mirror and saw everything that was wrong with his shape. The hips, the breasts, the lack of muscle growing around his stomach no matter how much weight he tried to put on at best when he tensed his he felt them under a layer of fat that would not leave. Reaching for the blades his hand steadied. “at least it heals quickly there” he whispered.

As quick as a flash the blade slid across the lower half of his breast. “NOT GOOD ENOUGH!” he screamed as he watched the shadow fill up with blood and over flow. He repeated the previous gesture again and again until he could see no uncut tissue remaining on that side that could not be covered by his bra. He noticed the blood trickle down his tummy and so he shimmied his jeans and boxers down to avoid any blood stains. The situation became slightly more real.

He quickly walked to the toilet grabbing a roll of toilet paper and returning to the mirror. He mopped up the blood whimpering “stupid girl”.

The bleeding subsided and he felt brave enough to pull the soaked paper away to see the damage noticing his hair had blood on it. Possibly not his smartest move he grabbed it and cut it off with the blade leaving an average of two inches in length of hair. He shook as he noticed the length to which he had gone but it was calming to see it gone and lying on the floor around him.

Some how it was 16:47 and there where only 4 hours until She should be back. He looked around for scissors to neaten of what he had started until he felt he looked more like himself rather than like her. He looked at the mess he had made and rushed around cleaning it up as quickly as he could then returning to the mirror and sighed as despite his efforts he still wasn't there yet. He routed through his bag for a darker bra and placed it over the cuts hiding them perfectly.

Liam continued to dress before running his fingers through his hair realizing Beth would want some fun later and how could he explain it. He could always just pull the period card it usually worked.

He went downstairs to wonder through the kitchen for a while and try and find food. In the end he warmed up a couple of pasties some onion rings and two chicken keives in the oven and swallowed them down quickly. He noticed how the calm aura he had built before had left. He had far to much fat already because that's what female bodies have fat around the hips and on the thighs and on the chest. He grabbed a glass of water gulping it down with out taking a breath in the hope that he would feel nausius and it worked. He ran to the bathroom but nothing so Liam began to force his fingers further and further down his thought until he would cough up mucus but still no food. Eventually he tried stretching his fingers out down the back of his throught and all of a sudden food irrupted from his mouth it tasted rather fresh as though it was just cooked and still warm from his insides. He kept going until nothing more would leave him. There was a thrill in it all. Light headed Liam pulled him self up and flushed the toilet cleaned his fingers and teeth.

He returned to his loves bed, his eyes leaked but he ignored it.

Liam rightly supposed he was safe now and it disappointed him. He lead on the bed for a few more minuets before working out a plan and plucking up the courage to execute it. He grabbed the spare keys after throwing his bag over his shoulder. Walked to the first store and bought the bottle that would be his salvation. Then continued walking into town and in every next shop buying a box of paracetamol though in two ibuprofen where the best that he could do then returned with an hour or so remaining. First packet was empty rather quickly with no aid but the further he got through the boxes the more vodka each pill took to wash down. Feeling sick and light headed he crawled to the bathroom banging his head and occasionally vomiting until he fell unconscious.   

Doodles

Fragments of a tormented soul

00.58 am. Can't sleep. Again. I just lay here awake thinking of the things i might say to you. Nothing comes to mind. Do you want to know why? Because to me you are nothing. Yet still, here i am, writing about you. I have no reason to. You destroy my mental health, while also teaching me to destroy it myself. You put me through the most pain i've ever been through. You're selfish, ignorant, completely obvlivious of the pain you're causing people. So explain this to me; if i hate you, why am i writing this?

I'm bleeding. Inside, not outside. Don't worry. This is more than i can take. I told you what it was like, the nail varnish remover next to my bed, tempting me with the words "solvent abuse can kill instantly". I won't do it. It'd hurt you too much, but you still had the balls to do that to me? You're sick. You have people to think about, so think. Your arms and thighs are covered in white scars from war wounds. I understand that. The worst war to fight is the one against yourself. I know. But you have the best army. Friends and a family and a boyfriend.

You lost the war. You held up a little white flag but you showed no mercy. You dragged us all down with you. Yet here i am. Still caring. Still crying.

Just tell me what to do.

In The Arms Of The Sun

In the arms of the sun
Where warmth abides
Where necessity resides
Where set afire
Are the heartfelt lies
And either broken or joined
Those once-upon-a-time tries.

Like fiery lava it burns
Smothers and churns
Combusting all a child learns
And moulding it's life's twists and turns.

In the arms of the sun
Where one does belong
Where one feels strong.
In the arms of the sun
Where one is able to sing that beautiful song
For a period of time that is long
Long
Long
But never, never, prolonged.

The Land Of The Up-Theres

"The secret history of the world is a rude gesture in the face of the know-it-alls who make up our intellectual elite, the control freaks who would decide what is acceptable for us all to think and believe "  
      -Preface of The Secret History of The World by Jonathan Black

I ponder about the land of the up

While playing with my coffee cup,

All those doctors and nurses

So far up their own asses,

Even the check out staff think I’m inferior

because of my shy and quiet exterior.

They might ask me what I do

I say “Physics and maths too”

And all of a sudden they turn I am one of them now

“Oh well you must be smart, Wow!”

How do those subjects make me intelligent?

What makes them think I care for their acknowledgement

They look down because we are not they

But I would rather be seen as someone with nothing to say

Or at least nothing worth while hearing

Than be someone who’s vision is disappearing

Blind to what is before them

So worthy or not they condemn

Or worse ignore what they don’t want to believe.

I can’t work out if they’re ignorant or naive,

Maybe it’s my fault for looking in the undergrowth,

Seeing the darker places causes a deep loath.  

For those who would consider equality immoral

and that capitalism causes less quarrel,

Well I very much agree

The down-theres can’t afford the key

While the up-theres swagger around

and the think-they’re-up-theres continue to astound

They think they are so amazing

Getting payed for patronizing

I suppose I don’t see what makes them tick

How can they act like that and not make them self sick?

I wonder if I am alone in thinking this...

I guess I should shut up and go back to staring into the abyss.

First 50 words

At first there were a fair few writers. Every wednesday, room 125 was full of amazing creative talent but then as the weeks went by, they started to be picked off, one by one. By the end of the year, only four loyal members were left. James. Lucy. Mich. Becky.

It feels like the clouds are returning day by day

and it seems poems are the only way I can portray

the aching and throbbing inside my head,

so why should I care what has been said?

Sure, I am selfish I am glad you realized,

about time someone else critizised

the way I have been behaving as of late

staring into space as I sit and wait.  

"Wait for what?" you might question

Well a way to deal with things apart from suppression.

I am pretty miserable when I am sat alone

and it doen’t get much better when I randomly roam

but at least people think it made it better

though in reality it just made me more bitter.

Where ever I look sadness lies

but people still emphasis:

“STOP BEING SO MISSERABLE”

They forget I am not adaptable

So I grit my teeth and punch a wall

Hoping it might make the bad thoughts stall

Then hide away from everyone numb

Popping away with my chewing gum.

For my favourite planet, I bring a box of stars.
A thank you, a blessing, for being what you are.
I suppose this means I am no longer a resident
And so I must leave you with this mere present.

And as I fly further from your reach,
Hopefully Sharples will still teach.
And if not, I swear
I'll drag her right back there
Because what is a class or planet
So contrary
Without their Queen and mother,
Mary?

An accidental 50 words story(ish).

Wrote this in a message to Josie on Facebook and we decided it was really good. So I cut it down to 50 words (literally had to change the 'I am' to 'I'm' and a couple of other things and that was it) and posted it here!

I like to imagine I am a legendary samurai warrior, striking down the questions one by one with my fabled sword. Then I remember that the sword I'm holding is in fact a pen and I'm not a samurai, simply just a chubby kid stuck in a cold exam hall.

My favourite lesson this year :)

The word 'gay' in the poem means happy! :)

I remember the first time I walked into room 125.

I was scared and nervous, I can't lie,

sitting in between two people I already knew,

looking at the others, wondering who

they could be

and if they liked Glee.

The first task, I enjoyed

eye contact with the others, I tried to avoid.

Even though I loved it,

the reasons for my nerves hit,

me. I couldn't write,

my poems, stories and odes never felt right.

Yet I still adored every part,

from the very bottom of my heart.

Each lesson I looked forward to,

and still do.

I've made quite a few friends,

some in the evening, messages to them, I send.

Conversations about fandom,

or stuff that is totally random,

Captain America, Harry Potter, evil cats

and sometimes, though forbidden, even maths.

You're all so confident,

in a way that's not arrogant.

Writing through the day and into the night,

you're all so good, it gives me a fright.

Knowing what you're thinking when my writing appears on the blog,

"OMG, you can't even rhyme anything with the word blog?!"

So, I won't read out my stuff, it's too scary,

like them monsters you see all fat and hairy.

But just so you know, I'm so glad I was brave enough,

to enter into this family, as loyal as a Hufflepuff.

It's sad that it's coming to an end.

I hope, afterwards, you will all still be my friend.

It's the end of an era some might say,

where we've all been so nice, so wonderful, so gay.

It's a place where I've felt really alive,

a place that is called planet 125.

I guess this is farewell to planet125
Where my mind again thrived
Got back thrills I haven't felt in a while
even though I first went as a trial
I didn't know I could actually write
So when I got praise for my work it brought delight
My favorite part was making something people enjoyed
While with Stanzas and rhyme schemes I toyed

It was weird, it brought great highs and lows
All the while the poems showed my woes
Thank you guys for being the highlight of my week
Though I don't think I really speak
But in the end there where a few meows and the occasional dance
And that apple pie I brought by chance
Thank you for letting me read your work to
But I guess this really is adeiu

<3

Writer's block

Here i am, yet again. Staring at an A4, wide rule, 1" margin piece of lined paper. The words used to flow, but now? Nothing. They put a leash on my mind, "this is too explicit", "have you thought about seeing a counsellor?". Seeing a counsellor? Wow. Never have i heard such a stupid suggestion. Sitting in a room alone with a stranger until i have some kind of epiphany? Useless. I write disgusting things. My characters do them, not me. If it was me doing those things then fair enough, put me in a straight jacket in a padded cell. They tried something similar to this once, i spent 6 months in a hospital. Apparently i had the "symptoms" of a psychopath. How does murdering people have symptoms? Nope, i can't think of anything either. I had an interest in biology so i dissected a couple of hamsters, but apparently that means i'm crazy. I was twelve, i didn't know any better. I write about their dreams sometimes. What they would have enjoyed doing; the first one, Harry, liked playing in his wheel in my stories and Felicity liked chewing pieces of paper up. It doesn't make me crazy though, does it?

I was let out of the hospital because i wrote about things instead of doing them. I would never do those things i write about. "I" would, as in the narrator of the story, they're nearly always the main character. There are slight overlaps between our lives, nothing huge though. Sometimes i like to act them out, i often write monologues so i can do this. I do them when i'm outside and there's people around. Interacting with them is great, they react perfectly - they don't know i'm acting so why would they?

There was a girl i met while i was doing this and the character was a tad crazier than normal. I made sure i was gentle but she fainted, she was easy enough to get into the van.

There they are, the blue lights are outside the window now. I rang them, "i" was crazy so i had to to stop "me". I hope "i" didn't hurt her.



At least now i have something to write about.

Some more brain goo in words

Here he is. He's back. Again. Why can't he leave for good?


I should probably tell you who i'm talking about. He doesn't have a name. He isn't real. He's inside my head. He tells me to do things. Horrible things. To myself, don't worry, you're not in danger. Not from me, at least.

Some days he leaves me alone, some days he makes my life hell.

Today is one of those days. He's been in my head, he won't leave.

I should probably name him. Nothing seems to quite fit, except maybe Lucifer. But i'm probably sounding a bit over-dramatic at the minute.

I can make him go away, i just do what he tells me to do and he leaves me alone for a while, a week, maybe two. He's the definition of evil, the Devil, Hell. I hate him, but at the same time i wouldn't be myself without him. I've had him for so long i couldn't imagine life without him. The thought of him leaving is like the thought of cutting off a gangreenous leg. I don't mind him taking holidays, but a permanent holiday scares me. He's there for me, he understands. I give him all my problems so i can function daily.


This story isn't going anywhere, i just want you all to know there are voices in all our heads. You can block them out, but they're still there. Those voices saying hurt someone, it might be fun. The second you listen to them is the second you loose your life. They're in control. You can't say no. If you do he'll come back stronger and stronger until you give in. Say no to him, beat him down into a cage, lock the door and throw away the key. He can't get out of your cage. If he does you'll become what i have become. A monster. He destroys you. He's a tumour.


Please, i beg you, throw his key away. It's too late for me, he's consumed me. There is no more me. The best thing i can do is kill him. Drowning will do. Feet in concrete.


Ready?

A Retrospect

I held the picture next to thin air
Frozen reality and real life just doesn't compare
Crumbling and broken, the structure about to give
I gaze upon the home in which my grandfather used to live.

I remember visiting as a small child
The train journey from London to Yorkshire with which I was not beguiled
Picking turnips and cabbages from his vegetable patch
Collecting eggs from the chickens and boiling them before they hatched

I meander sombrely to the old back yard
The once vibrant flower beds rather sparse
Although wartime had started and times were hard
He always used to find time to lie with me in our garden and stare at the stars.

Alas I grew older and the visits became more infrequent
Adolescence hit and I no longer craved his company nor his quiet contentment
Then the bombs dropped from the sky and that all but sealed our fate
To Kent I was sent and we could only communicate through letters that arrived late.

In the summer of forty-five I decided to see him again
As he greeted me at his front door I realised all mutual affection had been retained
All my worrying and fretting about lost connections had been in vain
Though I now had a husband, job and kids our relationship would be almost the same.

My mother had perished in the war
And my father was never around, not even before
So my grandfather took the role of dad and he filled it with pride
And it filled me with happiness that I had this warm, loving soul in which I could confide.

All was well until tragedy struck in sixty-two
Cancer had come to call but we hoped he would pull through
As he underwent various treatments and therapies we anxiously played the waiting game
But the war with cancer was lost and he smiled without regret as Thanatos extinguished his flame.

At the funeral I wept without retention
I had lost a father figure and a best friend; he'd left a lasting impression
He'd become like a dad to my partner and kids too
Like vines up a wall, jointly, our sorrow grew.

And here I stand, dead still in this roughed up flowerbed
So with the rain starting to fall and a tear in my eye it's back to the car I tread
And the house is still broken and damaged and although I wish it to be fixed
It's damaged beyond repair, it's gone, I just have to let it go and move on.

Using the Blog

Hi folks,

Just a quick post to remind everyone that the material posted on the blog must be appropriate to represent the College and the content must not be such that it would deliberately offend anyone reading it.

If I am worried about any of the posts I will have to take them off the blog.

Thanks so much for the new material though and for all your wonderful writing which is keeping the blog fresh and exciting to read!

Mary

An Ode To A Plastic Wallet

You were sitting there,

Lounging away with your colleagues when you caught my eye.

Your skin shining brightly like a newly washed car,

As I passed you by.

Your exterior, clear as crystal, and feelings smooth as a baby’s skin

As I pick you up from the plastic wallet tin.

You move gracefully in my hands, as light as a feather,

Completely opposite to antique leather.

Your sharp edges and basic structure block all those who attempt to come near

But lost is all the fear,

When they are in desperate need of you to protect them from the waters of the storm outside.

Their dreams, hopes, and identities in you they hide.

You are a crucial item for all

And we will always catch you when you fall.

Faith

34 hours of labour. Pure torture. My body adjusting to be able to bring my precious, beautiful child into the world. I would go through hell for her.

I did.

It was 10 o'clock in the morning on Thursday 12th October when i went to the hospital. "No pain relief," i told the midwife. She would suffer for me so i must return the favour. I was shown to my dull, grey room and told the midwife about my perfectly normal pregnancy and how i was in the hospital two weeks earlier than her due date. My husband carried my bags along the corridor with doors attempting to hide the screams of women pushing. We reached our room and got settled in for a long stay.

It was the usual, the odd check-up from the midwife, lunch at 12.30, tea at 6. Regular contractions. Fine.

The following day, the same. Not much happened. Not until 7.30pm the following day. My contractions got faster and faster. I panicked. The midwife wasn't around and i didn't want her to be. My husband had gone to pick my mum up - she lives about 45 mins from the hospital. I was alone. I pushed, i needed to. I had to. I stayed silent to share this moment with just her, my baby.  There she was. The head, at least. One more push and that was it.

She was so pale. So beautiful.
Her glazed, green eyes stared blankly into mine.
The unbillical chord was wrapped around her neck; she was stone cold.


So beautiful. My precious baby girl.


I cried as i held her. I held her so close to me, my heart beat felt like it was hers.
She was so cold.



Sleep tight my angel.

50 words x3 - for our book

May 3rd
Why couldn't he see that i loved him with all my heart! How could i be so stupid, so paranoid over him going out with his friends? Why couldn't he see that i didn't want to lose him! I can't believe we argued over that and now hes gone. Forever.

May 4th
The sky darkened and rain began to pound against the pavement, falling faster than the people rushing to get to any shelter, preferring to watch it soak everything it touched from inside. But Molly didn't really mind, the rain made her smile as droplets of water splattered against her face.

May 6th
The end of the world had come, but not by some huge natural disaster, like a meteor or an earthquake spitting lava; No, this came at the hands of 'scientists' who developed a cure to the common cold. Now i'm running for my life, alone, away from those horrific creatures.

Becky D: Hope you guys liked these :) and lets just pretend that i've done one every day :P

Just posing for the photograph
Evangeline's chair beside me
Right where she should be
On her back I place my hand
My thumb strokes the surface
Ending the last shed of love I have for her

Bright is the camera flash in my eyes
Rigorous to my sensitives lenses
Out of the building I go
Never again will I return
'Till the beating of my heart
Ends.

Fairy Starlet: Greed is bad.

It's like a children's story, hope you like it.

Starlet was in the land of fairies, eating some pie. She was an unfortunate fairy you see as she had an addiction to food. The others teased her, they were so thin, it made Starlet feel like a giant, unnaturally large. On this particular day, she was feeling extra hungry but she couldn't find any more food in the village. The villagers often hid their food in case she ate it all. She decided to have a look in the forest, she sometimes spotted a few tasty berries here and there. But today, she had no such luck. That was until she caught the smell of something yummy. She stumbled through the woods in search of the source. She had travelled a very long time when she found that the smell was coming from a very large tree. There was a hole though and as Starlet took a step closer to see what was inside, the smell became stronger. It made her mouth drool. She just had to take a look so she slowly stepped closer and closer until she was near enough to see inside. Gasp! It was the most delicious looking chocolate cake she had ever seen. It had white chocolate flakes, a creamy milk chocolate sauce and a thick dark chocolate sponge. She could take it no longer, she dived into the hole so that her legs dangled out and started eating...and eating....and eating.

The more she ate, the more hungry she felt so she ate more and more. The strange thing was that every time she broke a piece off, it reappeared. Magic wasn't rare in fairy land so Scarlet knew she had been tricked. But, she had eaten so much cake she had become even larger, so large she filled the hole in the bark of the tree and as she tried to wriggle out, it was clear to her that she was stuck. Starlet began to cry. The other fairies made her do that a lot, they  could be very mean. She had been crying for a while when she heard rustling behind her. She wanted to know what was making the noise but, of course, she couldn't turn herself round to find out. Suddenly, she felt the bark around her coming away and soon, she was able to get out of the tree. She turned around and looked for the source of the noise. It was another fairy! She was very old with silvery white hair flowing down to her waist and she wore a bright pink dress with tiny flowers dotted all over it.

"Starlet, I am Fairy Trinket," she smiled and did a little courtesy, "I've noticed how greedy you are and I hope that this lesson may have helped you to want to stop eating so much. Greed is a very bad thing."

"How do you know my name?"

"Everybody knows your name! The Fairy Community is a very close one, and your greed has shocked the land."

Starlet looked down at her feet, she felt ashamed, "But it's so hard, I feel so hungry all the time!"

"You cannot be greedy forever, you need to learn to control yourself. I did this for your own good."

"I know," mumbled Starlet, "I'm sorry. I will try and stop eating as much I promise. That was scary, I don't want that to happen ever again."

"And it won't, just as long as you truly have learned your lesson," and with that she was gone.

Starlet lived happily ever after, eating less food and being less greedy. The other fairies felt bad for what they had done so they treated her nicely from then on and promised to be friends forever. 

An Ode To...

Certain people may not like this...

After 14 years it is time for us to finally part
In a few days it will all be over
I've gotten to know you so well
But on that day it will no longer matter
All that you taught me will be gone
And replaced with Acts and years
I remember the first equation I ever solved
I felt so accomplished
That's when I really got to know you
The solving was the main component in all of our best moments
And then you introduced me to algebra
At first I was so confused
But eventually I understood
The numbers were just describing the letters
It was fascinating
Trying to find that secret value
X, Y or Z and sometimes A and B
It was just like we were part of a big family which
We only knew, would end in catastrophe
It got a bit complicated when I found out about the graphs
We worked it out together though
And came out a lot stronger
With a better understanding of one another
The way you challenge me
Stressful it may be
I get that feeling of accomplishment
A feeling I get with no other
You plus I equals the solution to true love
Despite this division, which some would call our divorce
You'll remain in my heart infinitively
Because for me you were the most beautiful force.

I will miss you my dear Math.

Hugging A Blueberry In Manchester Arndale

This is from the memory thingmabob from before...

I was buzzing with anticipation as I waited for the two men in bright purple suits to cut the sparkly ribbon. At the front of the queue I stood, looking up at the stunningly beautiful shop in awe. The noise of the ecstatic voices in the Manchester Arndale was immense. But no-one was as excited as I was. I had been waiting for weeks, months even, for the moment I could step foot in the miniature chocolate factory. From outside, the shop was magical, purple paint covered the front of it and a huge sculpture stared down at us all from above. It was the biggest chocolate bar I had ever seen and plastered on the wrapper read, "Willy Wonka's Mini Chocolate Factory", knowing Mr Wonka, it was probably sculpted fully out of chocolate.

   After hours of waiting one of the men finally took out the most extravagant pair of scissors and I watched as they moved towards the ribbon. I saw the piece of ribbon split in two and I felt the crowd behind me surge forward. I sprinted inside and my mouth dropped open, the inside was more astonishing than the outside. The entrance room was full with the largest quantity of sweets I had ever thought imaginable. It contained every sweet I knew and more. Stacks full of bonbons, laces, fizzy bottles, chewy fruit squares, gobstoppers....

   I spotted two doors at the very back of the room and made my way over to them, sueezing past crowds of people and dodging in and out the piles of sweets. One door was labelled, "Chocolate Room", the other "Very Large fruit". The smell from the first made my mouth fill with saliva, I could just imagine the many different variations of chocolate bars....But the latter made me curious so I slowly pushed open the door and stepped inside. I could never have prepared myself for the sight that lay before me when as I entered that room. Shelves reaching as high as the ceiling which soared up into the sky and out of sight, stuffed with fruit so large, I'm sure they were atleast twice the size of me. A giant blueberry in a corner of the room caught my eye. I walked over to it and knelt down to where it sat on the bottom shelf. I wondered if it smelt as good as it looked. I leant forward and gave it a big hug whilst inhaling the heavenly scent of blueberry. 

2nd May - 50 word short story contest!

Becky D: Okay, second day and it is actually a really fun thing to do! I'm going to this for the entire month and maybe, some could be put in our book maybe, if they're good enough X3

Anyways :) This one was inspired by the weather today. Haven't had this type of weather for ages!

Thursday, May 2nd, 2013

The sun was in the sky, showering the land with its presence. Finally, no more spring snow, blistery cold winds or complaints about needing summer. Finally it's back in Britain! Oh, and how we have missed it! Now on with the Summer Holidays, ice cream and swimming in chilled pools.

Its stupid that I am nervous

Now I have finally found a purpose

Even though its stupid and premature

And I act rather immature.

It's not only that I can barely talk

Or I get shy and stumble when I walk.

But it's stupid you made me smile

For what feels like the first time in a while,

Though time is running out,

In all honesty I have a lot of doubt

But I will grab hold of any happiness I can get

Rather than live a life of regret.

I am going to take every single smile

Bottle that happiness and run a mile

I will try and be your friend and see if you agree

Even if this thing in my head is just me.

So in this final month of may

I will act like me and see what you say.

It's silly, it was like the world collapsed,

If I am honest actually relapsed,

But you where there with light harted fun

Maybe you can be my motivation to get my work done

On the worst days I will imagine your face

and maybe a warm embrace

things are to weird I suppose for it to ever be more

Just knowing you is a joy. What more could I ask for?

50 Words - Short Story challenge

Becky D: I've decided that i am going to write a 50 word short story everyday this month and post them on here. This is my first one, hope you guys like it ;)

The battle raged on for hours. Warriors on both sides were struck with exhaustion and fatigue, but none were surrendering. Both sides had everything to lose yet so much to gain. Glistening gold charged at ebony black, showering them in blood and dirt, yet they were all destined to fall.

An Ode to Fandom

Becky D: Okay, not sure if this is an ode or not but i got into an argument on youtube about fandom, i was for it, the other guy was against it and this is what i did after i gave up on it

And if it isn't an ode, sorry but aww well

Ode to Fandom

Fandom is not an unhealthy obsession,
Or a unusual subject to talk about
If it is anything, It is a love
A love as pure as the air
A love as beautiful as a rose
A love as unforgettable as the songs that put us to sleep

It does not make us different
Or weird or strange
It does not mean it takes up all our attention
It does not mean we lust over the characters
Drawn or acted or written about
Not at all.                                                                                                                                                                                         

Fandom is a world of acceptance
A place where you can make new friends
A place where you can be accepted
A place to meet people much like you
From near, from far
From down the street, to across the continent

Fandom is a unity
It brings together people
From different races
From different back grounds
From different lives
From different ages

Fandom creates fun!
It creates games,
creates businesses,
creates a chance to become our heroes!
It creates costume contests and conventions for all to join
and online discussions sharing theories and advice on gameplay

Fandom is an escape
From bullies, stress,
From anger, from pain
It gives us a place to belong
A rescue from the world that seems against you
A place where you can be larger than life

Fandom, as you can see,
Is not a childish thing
Is not a phase
Is not a weird
Is not an unhealthy obsession
And it shouldn’t be seen as any of those things

This is fandom,
And it is an important part of who we are
As people
And it is where we belong
It’s what we love
And it’s a part of who we are